Mama told me there’ll be days like this

When no one steps on my dreams there’ll be days like this
When people understand what I mean there’ll be days like this
When you ring out the changes of how everything is
Well my mama told me there’ll be days like this

Days Like This by Van Morrison

To be honest, days like that seem far away.

For sure, I never expected a day like today, when I made the hardest and scariest decision of my career.

The editor of a great newspaper called Monday about an opening for which I had submitted an application last week at the 11th hour. Plans were made for me to meet with that editor and others in his newsroom on Wednesday and Thursday.

I respectively respectfully withdrew tonight. As I told him, itย  was a big morale boost to get his call Monday — two weeks to the day that I lost my job, as the corporate folks say, due to economic circumstances.

But after going on a bike ride tonight and giving it a lot of thought, I’m just not ready to pack up and move again — something I’ve already done far too many times in the past 23 years. And now I can’t help but wonder what in the hell all of those moves accomplished anyway. None of it seemed to matter to the people who have cast me aside.

So Muscatine just may be stuck with me.

If someone had told me 20 years ago I would walk away from the opportunity presented to me this week, I would have never believed them. It makes me wonder what my 25-year-old self would say. He would have probably laughed at me for being an old man and then called me vulgarities from which I will spare everyone else.

But there have been times when that younger me insecurely leaped at the first opportunity that came along — only to discover if he had waited, even better options would have appeared in the future.

So now, when I have no idea what the next thing in my life will be, I’ve decided against leaping at the first opportunity to present itself. For now, I can only hope to look back on the experience some day and know it was the right decision.

9 thoughts on “Mama told me there’ll be days like this

  • I’m stunned really. I’m humbled, and just a little teary-eyed reading this, to know that you seem to really like us ๐Ÿ™‚ (and by “us”, I mean Muscatine). I feel the same way. I’ve got roots here now, which I never really felt like I had any other place I’ve lived. Very tough decision for you, and only time will tell if if was the right one. I hope it was. And I LOVE that I get a notification on my phone, so when I wake up in the morning, this is normally the first thing I read. Awww Chris, we kinda like you too ๐Ÿ™‚

  • Hard to say no, but you’ll be glad you did. If you are the right one for that job, they will be back and you can reevaluate then. Make decisions based on values and have the courage to stick with them. That’s the hardest thing of all, and with which I struggle. Something will click. Keep pedaling and writing.

  • Wish more people like Chris stayed in Muscatine. We are the ones that benefit from it. Do hope it was the right decision but don’t you feel great that it was offered. When you do make this big decision you won’t have time for this blog and then how will I start my day. Jeanne

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